As I sat in the cafe by Gramercy, feelings started pouring in. Gratitude, fear, blessed, stressed, loss, happiness, appreciation etc… It is a mix of feelings without exact thoughts or concerns in mind. This year is like a hurricane, that came into my life and put my world into a spin; lots of new people were introduced into my life, lots of changes in the way I work and think, lots of exposure to other parts of the world and cultures and an important person was taken away from me.
I broke up at the start of 2014 after being in a relationship for slightly over 2 years. It was a very bold move I made and I was very afraid at that time that I will regret my decision. Being a Virgo, I had inherited the unique trait of being a perfectionist, which applies to the way I look at relationship. I started dating a couple of guys, some were based in San Francisco and some based in Singapore. It was an interesting period for me as I have never been single for the past 8 years. I learnt a lot about myself and love to care about myself. I learnt about the kind of guys that I like and also learnt to grow to be the lady that treats myself right. Through all the sweet and painful experience, I have finally found someone that who dotes and cares about me genuinely as his.
This year itself, I traveled to the Iceland, US (3), Korea (3), Japan, Manila (4), Ireland, Vietnam and soon, Australia. I am very grateful for such opportunities, as a child, I used to envy my friends who get to travel to many countries where I had only been to Malaysia. With a grateful heart, I give my all to the mission if I am business trip or enjoyed myself to the fullest if I am on vacation. Through all these adventures, I met many people of all walks of life. I learnt that having an open and humble heart, I am able to be a better ME. I also take the chance to interact with the locals and try to ‘live’ their life. I am very lucky to have been exposed to the many cultures and able to witness what I read up in books and websites, in real life. I will treasure all the friends and colleagues that I have met and hopefully, able to bring happiness to their lives.
Back in April 1, 2015, my grandpa passed away. It was the biggest joke of my life, that day was so happened April Fools’ day. I questioned myself, especially the way I have been living my life. Because of this, I hold myself accountable to dedicate quality time with my loved ones; grandma, parents, brother and my baby girl, Yuni. I promised that I will not only do well in my career, I will also give back to my family. My grandpa’s passing taught me a lesson, money and career are important, but love and time are priceless, never take it for granted. I do not want to regret so I will consciously practice not to take it for granted.
For the past 11 months, many things came and went in such a speed that I was mostly reacting and moving at a speed to keep at the same pace. Of course, through the process, I grew and develop a lot. I came out as a stronger woman, still learning how to be humble and appreciate what I have, hopefully, to give back as well.
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